“TP Day 2
Not sure how often or regular I’d be updating this online journal, but here’s my first go. Today was the first time we all had to teach a class, in some way or another. It wasn’t my first time teaching, but it definitely was my first time teaching adults the English language. I had confidence in myself and my ability, but of course the experience was different, and I made mistakes because of this change, such as addressing these people (some of whom were possibly double my age) inappropriately.
As I sat back down in my chair immediately after my teaching slot was up, I did feel very satisfied with myself. But 5 minutes later, I reflected on my slot properly and wasn’t as satisfied, and during the feedback session with Peter I was even less satisfied with my teaching display. He rightly (and constructively) pointed out how I hadn’t given instructions in a central position, how I had spoken way way too fast, how I hadn’t chunked my instructions and how I had too much teacher talking time. On the way home as I reflected further, I felt very disappointed with myself because I already anticipated that such occurrences might arise while I teach. I knew that, in front of a crowd, I tend to speak as fast as a bullet-train and tend to ramble on and on. I also knew that as a result, I don’t often give clear, direct and concise instructions. The fact that I knew my weaknesses beforehand, and still continued to commit such glaring errors, really frustrated me. And giving instructions in a central position? That’s the most basic, fundamental skill anyone has to have in order to effectively communicate with a large group: capture your audience from a central position where you can see everyone and everyone can see you. It’s a skill I know I have, and in making such an elementary mistake I disappointed myself further.
Lesley and Peter, I don’t know if you’d read this, but I can assure both of you I’m not as downbeat or as harsh on myself as I might sound here. I know it’s still very very early days, and I know at least I’m getting some other things right, but the academic Singaporean student is kicking in me (even though I’ve been far from a straight-As student). I firmly believe in making mistakes to learn from them, and so that I may not repeat them again. Not repeating these public speaking mistakes are going to be difficult for me however: I always remember what I ought not to do, but once I’m on the floor I promptly forget all about them and ramble on forever.
It’s going to be a challenge.”
- dated 06/01/12
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